Tuesday, June 19, 2012

38 weeks pregnant and now…

...counting the days!!!

But dear family and friends… reality has not struck me yet!!! Is this a problem?

I feel a bad to admit it, but some days (but only some days) I really wish that little Lila would make her appearance now. But I only wish this because of how I feel sometimes. At the same time I’m also extremely grateful of what a great pregnancy I’ve had so far. Nothing really to complain about. Actually, a lot to be grateful for… The fact that Lila is a healthy baby, with 10 fingers and 10 toes, is such a blessing in itself! The only "bad" thing was the few weeks of morning (in my case, "all day") sickness and my low blood pressure. But then again, I’m glad that it was low and not high blood pressure. If I really have to mention anything else it would be my aching hips at night, but really, again, it is not that bad.

I can’t believe that there are only a few days left!!! Flip, am I ready for this? Well, I think I am, a little bit, but I also know that I don't really have a clue of how our life is going to change. But hey, it's how they say… "A change is as good as a holiday!" and I am really looking forward to this change.

Even though this feels like a wonderful dream, I’m so happy that no one can wake me up from is fantastic time in our lives. I am loving every single moment of it and I am so so so incredibly happy!!!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

The waiting game...

Even though I am 36 weeks pregnant, the whole idea of a tiny little life inside me still feels very unreal. It feels like I’m back in primary school… playing in my doll house… folding my dolls clothes, making her bed and waiting for my dad to buy the baby doll that I really love -  after all, it is my birthday soon! I feel the urge to phone someone to just kick start this whole process, and as soon as that person gives the "go ahead" I will jump up and down (o crap, I can't jump!!!) of excitement, screaming "Yay, yay, yay, freaken yay"!!! It feels so unreal… Soon I will be holding our little baby girl in my arms… sometime in this month of June… not July, not August… flipping, freaking JUNE!!! It can either be tonight, or tomorrow, or in a week or two… who knows? All I really know, as I sit here typing this post, is that time has NEVER EVER dragged this much!

A lot of things constantly run through my head… When will reality set in? Will it even set in before I give birth? When will my water break? Will it happen at work, or at home? Will it even break? How will my husband react? How will I react? Will I feel emotionally overwhelmed, or will I be calm? I do believe that "porridge brain" doesn't happen because your baby takes up all of your brainpower… No ways, it is because your mind needs to deal with so many extra questions, reactions and emotions – on top of normal life as we know it. Obviously the "filing system" gets a bit muddled up at some stage.

I wonder how many pregnant woman out there agree with me?

So how do I keep myself busy until something exiting happens? Because checking my stomach for stretch marks only keeps me busy for a few minutes… he he…